Rebound.

I hate this feeling.

I wish that everything can go back to how it was before.

Before i told you how I really felt.

But that’s not how the world works right?

Words spoken can never be taken back.

Combine that with my impulsiveness.

That’s a recipe for disaster right there.

You told me.

We both need a chill out period.

We both went over the top a lil.

Yeah, maybe we did.

I know your intentions.

I know it’s not right to keep all this bitter feeling inside.

But for now, that’s all I know how to do.

Maybe, just maybe that feeling is less now.

But I can’t just go around saying I’m fine.

I know what you said is true.

Forgiving them, it not the same as having to be fine.

Right?

Just let the bitterness go.

I am learning to do that.

I am really sorry that I tried to make you feel like a rebound.

Even if I don’t want to admit it.

Subconsciously I guess I tried to rebound to you.

You deserve better than that.

After all you have gone through.

That’s not the right way for me to do it.

I really do like you.

That won’t change.

Back when you first ask me to ‘tapau’.

I knew back then that I liked you.

But back then I couldn’t just run up to you and tell you all that.

If I did, maybe we won’t be such great friends now.

But maybe also I would’ve saved you some pain from everything.

I know all this is just sweet nothings to you.

For now, that’s all I can give you.

Sweet nothings.

Sweet nothings that I wish can comfort you.

Sweet nothings that I hope you can trust me enough to tell me what pains you.

Sweet nothings that I hope can change back things to how there were before.

Maybe things are already back to how it was before.

But it just doesn’t seem the same to me.

I messed up I guess.

But I’ll continue to do that.

I overthink stuff.

That’s the norm for me.

Anyways, I’ve rambled long enough.

I wish everything will go back to how it was.

My feelings won’t change, and I hope I don’t scare you away.