Wednesday, May 25, 2011

reflection..

you know..
a friend just told me this...
how simply put

'i wish it was that simple'

this got me thinking...
no worries.. not gonna sidetrack here..
i will be on the correct line throughout..
so bear with me eh...

i just realized, why i have not had a girlfriend or a close girl friend all this while..
yes.. i've said that I FEAR THE IDEA OF COMMITMENT..
i know...
but to rebuttle that point is that..
i cannot make that statement coz i have never been a committed relationship to any girl before..

but....

i've just realized..
it was actually down to.. (as far as i can think of).. down to two things..

PICKY

FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN

okay now why do i put this two things as the so called reason...

its very simple..

Picky
okay.. honestly.. i think i look for too much in a girl..
maybe i do... but you cannot blame me...
we want the best for ourselves...
so we tend to look for the best in things..
try to get the best deals out of lotsa stuff..
but only then do you.. or in this case I realize...
that if i'm looking for the best..
am I? the best? for the one i'm looking for?
don't she deserve better? who knows?
and then it comes back down to what i'm looking for..
usually i.. like any other guys would really love to get a girl with simple put.. the B&B.. beauty n brains.. not brawn.. that would be kinda gay.. =.="
but i put my hands up.. every girl out there is beautiful n brainy..
so that comes down to the picky bit..
if it is like so.. then why dont i just go for every girl there is..
and try my luck?
that would be simple rite?
wrong.

coz that's where point two comes...

Fear of the Unknown

okay.. this one looks reasonable right?
i mean more in the sense that it is logical..
i guess most guys out there have the same problem..
what would happen if i get with her??
what does the future hold??

i know thinking of the future freaks most girls..
they usually want to know what a relationship means n hold for them..
but too early would still spook them out...

but still.. THE JOURNEY IS PART OF THE EXCITEMENT AND JOY.. i think that was how that was supposed to sound.. or something like that.. >.<
i know this two contradicting points..
but it both pissess me off..
you know..

when i like a girl..
i'd think really far forward..
i can see from first impression what i like and what i dont like..
and how it will end..
(i know.. give em a chance.. give yourself a chance)
but even so..
i know what things hold for me...
i know that i would eventually break their heart..
(i've never done it.. but i know i will..)
so i think to myself...
WHY SHOULD I GO BREAKING HEARTS???
i should just let them be n be happy for me n the order of the world..
till i find the girl..
but i know its not that simple...

thats why i wish on those very words that it should be true..

I WISH IT WAS THAT SIMPLE

but i know its not..
and i think many guys out there understand what i mean..

anyways.. cheerios guys n gals..

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

bear with me..

hey there bloggie..

its been long i think since my last post..
*let me check*
well i guess not that long.. since i'm not a hardcore blogger..actually i think i am if i were to have my laptop with me all the time that i feel the urge to write something and internet connection...

i guess that is what pen & paper are for then rite?
but the feeling of writing in the moment and rewriting or basically retyping what have been wrote and seen just don't give the small feeling..
okay i've strayed off my point... haha... (oh first haha of the day)...

alrite... well i've been wondering.. why the heck is..
(well before anything.. to readers.. heads up.. bit mushy stuff coming)

..............................................................................................thinking of how to continue.....................

well.. i guess.. hey i know i'm a guy..
but i'll admit it.. i hate this feeling lonely bit..
i'm gonna be heading back to campus in say ten days or so for practicals..
and i know the messy stuff with the college's admin and students going all gung-ho on each other will continue...
i guess that's why i'm feeling a bit down..
i need to find the strength for me to continue on..
i wished that you (whoever you are) is there.. coz i know its gonna be a bumpy ride.. and i doubt male company is gonna help me much...

but i know you wont be there..
coz... i think this is a part of me..
or maybe its just human nature... or a guys nature..
to like girls who are way different from me.. from a different style of life...
simple put : out of my league.

god. i feel like a loser right now..
it seriously sucks.. big time...
but whoever the girl i'm longing for..
i know i dont need you.. the you i've been saying all along..
coz i dont think that it will ever be u..

yeah.. i'll admit i like you..
but i know its a one way thing with no traffic light or bypass for it to be a two way thing.
i.get.it.
and i've come to live with it.
as i usually do. haha.

but still seeing you again this week...
it just gives me that feeling all over again..
crap.

whatever it is...
i guess i'm wrapping up this entry for today..
i'll post again some other day..
maybe regarding this..
maybe not..

just the suckiest feeling that i get is when..
u tell a girl you like her..
and 9 times out of 10..
she'll be out of your life like you have never known em..

i guess it puts to perspective on who borders on that theory of just friends..
a theory that i'll share on a different day..
right on!!!

You'll Never Walk Alone!

Monday, May 9, 2011

favourite!!!

hey there friends.. greetings from penang.
oh yep, i'm in Penang, but i'm already heading back to KL tomorrow..
well anyways.. oh again i forgot.. exams are over peeps!! enjoy ur hols..
okay back to business..

i was blogwalking few moments back...
and i saw this familiar painting from a movie,



yup this one above...
and it reminded me of my.. well one of my all-time favourite movies..
Notting Hill!!! which is a romantic comedy featuring julia roberts and hugh grant..

well fast synopsis eh..

'William "Will" Thacker (Hugh Grant) owns an independent bookshop in Notting Hill that specialises in travel writing. He has been coping with divorce after his wife left him for a man who looked exactly like Harrison Ford. He shares his house with an uninhibited Welsh eccentric named Spike (Rhys Ifans).

Thacker encounters Hollywood star actress Anna Scott (Julia Roberts) when she enters his shop to buy a book. Minutes later, the pair collide in the street, causing Will to spill his orange juice on both of them. He offers his house across the road for Anna to change. She accepts and, having changed, surprises Will with a kiss and starts their mutual attraction.'


haha.. ok2... that was a quote totally from wikipedia.. oh tqvm wikipedia!!! and this is just the short n sweet plot so u guys have to go get the movie lah...



alright this is the poster of the movie... haha.. i just have to put it in..

trust me it will tickle ur funny bone and also give u an interesting perspective on love...

especially a love from two different worlds...


ok now the mushy part that i am interested in... just need a shoutout from friends and visitors alike..

well... right now i am at a point in my life where i still have a crush which is really near to me.. in the sense she is near la... something like that.. ok so... let me just put it straightforward!!

if i consult any friends... the most common answer i get is that, if u like her, go tell her, especiall from girls, this would be their reaction..


my understanding is, if u tell a girl u like them, automatically the reaction is like u know, fight or flight reaction..

fight is where they will kinda accept and will slowly let us fight for this liking that we have for them and see if they will eventually have that feeling too..

flight is well.. like the name says.. the girls will be gone from ur life...

and from past experiences, most of the time, girls flight.


so i need an opinion here... should i just tell her and get over it or??

another bit is i dont get to see her that much.. so trying to find a chance to tell her is tough to come by..

and i know through the phone or any other thing is not good enough, face to face is the best...


aite2 i strayed off here already..

honest opinion guys!!

"Should I tell her??"

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

that same old feeling the stomach...

crap...
that old feeling is coming again..
it's appearing...
any moment when i feel i get close to a girl..

i really feel like backing out..
so many questions..
so many worries....
coz i know what is gonna happen...

god...
i am scared of commitment...
especially when it comes to girls...
i learned this from monsieur barney stinson...

but damn...
i am really scared...

neways exam season is in...
luck people...