its been long i think since my last post..
*let me check*
well i guess not that long.. since i'm not a hardcore blogger..actually i think i am if i were to have my laptop with me all the time that i feel the urge to write something and internet connection...
i guess that is what pen & paper are for then rite?
but the feeling of writing in the moment and rewriting or basically retyping what have been wrote and seen just don't give the small feeling..
okay i've strayed off my point... haha... (oh first haha of the day)...
alrite... well i've been wondering.. why the heck is..
(well before anything.. to readers.. heads up.. bit mushy stuff coming)
..............................................................................................thinking of how to continue.....................
well.. i guess.. hey i know i'm a guy..
but i'll admit it.. i hate this feeling lonely bit..
i'm gonna be heading back to campus in say ten days or so for practicals..
and i know the messy stuff with the college's admin and students going all gung-ho on each other will continue...
i guess that's why i'm feeling a bit down..
i need to find the strength for me to continue on..
i wished that you (whoever you are) is there.. coz i know its gonna be a bumpy ride.. and i doubt male company is gonna help me much...
but i know you wont be there..
coz... i think this is a part of me..
or maybe its just human nature... or a guys nature..
to like girls who are way different from me.. from a different style of life...
simple put : out of my league.
god. i feel like a loser right now..
it seriously sucks.. big time...
but whoever the girl i'm longing for..
i know i dont need you.. the you i've been saying all along..
coz i dont think that it will ever be u..
yeah.. i'll admit i like you..
but i know its a one way thing with no traffic light or bypass for it to be a two way thing.
and i've come to live with it.
as i usually do. haha.
but still seeing you again this week...
it just gives me that feeling all over again..
whatever it is...
i guess i'm wrapping up this entry for today..
i'll post again some other day..
maybe regarding this..
just the suckiest feeling that i get is when..
u tell a girl you like her..
and 9 times out of 10..
she'll be out of your life like you have never known em..
i guess it puts to perspective on who borders on that theory of just friends..
a theory that i'll share on a different day..
You'll Never Walk Alone!