Thursday, April 21, 2011

well... emo post... kinda?

i am feeling mushy today...
very...
or more to lovey dovey... f*** off jiwang... hahaha....
lol...

but.. ok this is seriously gonna sound pathethic and sad..
but... i guess.. this is the position i find my life in again...
darn it.. exams are near.. but suddenly i get into this mood...
yup2...
ohkay... so what the heck am i feeling...

i am feeling sad...
kinda...
lonely maybe..
wee bit...

arghh..
the long lasting and confusing question in a guys life.
GIRLS.
no i am not desperate or anything...

i just reached a point that...
at this moment in life..
the girls that i was close with before..
are all gone..
seriously... sad weyyyy...
but i guess thats life..

close one chapter and open a new one..

it sounds simple rite..
doubt that it is...

lets see...
at the moment in life.. some moment in life ago...
i was close with 5 people..
i can say all of whom i can get to be more than friends with..
*important note* imma talking bout girls here... so dont salah paham!! hahaha..

but i think a year from that moment..
many things has happened..
i grew apart from two of them..
two are in a relationship *congrats neways*
and well the other one..
well she was always just a friend..

okay okay..
now what caused me to write this post all of a sudden..
its not depression, or sadness, or loneliness, or desperation..
its just that i miss those conversations i had with this people from the time back then...
i realized this as i stared at my phone..
no sms(es) or anything..
xcept for a call from 6th office... but that is a different story altogether..

yeah i know..
staring at your phone and hoping for something is sad..
bordering on pathethic..
but hey.. thats what i jusst did...

plus more friends are in a relationship nowadays..
seriously congrats to u peeps..
just got me wondering...
yeah i know..

i just watched 500 days of summer... awesome btw.
and im in love with ZOOEY DESCHANEL!!! hahaha..
but it got me thinking.. from that movie..
of true love..

or is love just a coincedence waiting to happen.
people say, dont just sit around and find ur love..
but seriously, in the foreseeable future..
i dont see that happening...
maybe im a wee bit picky..
okay.. too far off topic..
back to topic..

the reason is that..
i miss those 5 people of whom i was close with..
yes.i know. things happen.and change.but.
we just gotta move on eh.. haha...

the simple solution i can deduce of here is that...
close the old book.. lets find a new one..


Sunday, April 17, 2011

finals and all.. lol..

well.. its been a while...
hello again blog.. its been a fair share of time since i blogged.. but hey the bright side is i manged to get my life in order right before study week!! yay!! ^^
crazy reason to be happy, but it gives me a more distinct happy mood tonite..

well of crazy mushy posts and all.. tonite is not gonna be a mushy lovey dovey post..
though i must say this week has been an interesting one...
from performing at DTC..
that's Dewan Tunku Chancellor in UM...
its not what you guys think..
its just a performance for my Co-curiculum class which is introduction in modern theatre.
but still, i've gone up on that big stage for once in my time here... *happy relief and all in one...*

alrite.. so what am i gonna talk about tonite.. well actually this post got nothing to do with my finals..
seriously..
nothing to do with the topic or title chosen up there..
*tiada kena mengena dengan topic yang masih bru atau sudah tiada.. hahaha lol*
just the title reminds me that exams are close.. or near.. or around the corner.. though i dont seem to see it yet.. hahahahah.. hopefully it doesnt run me over...
but i have a feeling that i have enough time this semester this one week is enough.. i should get by okay.,. we must focus and study hahaha...

see.. i keep getting distracted.. ok.. tonite's post is about.. the term luar biasa.. or extraordinary..
now now.. settled down.. lol.. like anyone's gonna get excited bout this.. haha..
but anyways why did i pick the title like so?
it goes back to last thursday.. the 14th of April 2011.. the day of acting and controversy.. eh.. no no.. no controversy hahaha...

well okay so this is what happened...
on that fateful morning..
about 9.25 am, was the turn of the theatre class to perform their bit..
so off we all went, got ready and waited...
and kept on waiting for our queue.. the music...
we waited...
and then we got the news from up top from technical..
there is no music!!!!
OMG!!! (lol im overreacting hahahahahahahhaah... must be the time of nite..)
luckily i was not the first to go out..
but being the 'professional' students that we were.. lol
we just proceeded and the show went on fine... haha..

so now what luar biasa got to do with this??
simple..
after the performance, our lecturer call all us out and told us..

'korg telah lakukan sesuatu yang luar biasa hari ni.. iaitu melakukan sebuah teater tanpan musik...'

which basically meant, you guys did an extraordinary thing today.. teater with no music..
(apparently if the music was there, the impact would have been more legen....dary!!!) haha
okay...
so here's my deal...
luar biasa...
what does it mean?
luar dari biasa... translate to english..
doesnt it mean.. out of the norm..
something different.. right??
so basically luar biasa is just something that is different to the norm.. or ordinary..

which brings us the english term.. which is extraordinary...
now now...
i know its been a long post..
but lets literally break extraordinary down..
wouldnt extra ordinary mean that you are just extra ordinary.. meaning you are ordinary but just a lil bit extra..
it doesnt mean you're special or good right?? hahahaha...

and then something hit me.. thanks to my nice friends for hitting me but..
it hit me..

OUR LECTURER FOR THEATRE ACTUALLY SAID WE DID SOMETHING LUAR BIASA... ITS EXTRAORDINARY.. CAUSE WE DID IT WITHOUT ANY MUSIC BACKGROUND...

BUT~!!!!!

HE DIDNT ACTUALLY SAID IF WE WERE ANY GOOD.. WE WERE JUST EXTRAORDINARY COZ THERE WAS NO music...

DUM DUM DUM...

HAHAHA...

=.="

THANK YOU AND GOOD NIGHT!!!!

P.S: BEEN REALIZING LOTSA PEOPLE ARE IN LOVE NOWADAYS.. THATS COOL.. WONDER WHEN I'LL FIND MY ONE.. BUT ANYWAYS MAKE PEACE AND LOVE NO WAR!!!!

edited: sorry for any gramamtical errors.. sleepy mode :ON....

Sunday, April 10, 2011

just decided...

i think i was doing well before i took the plunge..
and i feel like i was okay..
now i feel like crap..
so i decided.

I.MUST.MOVE.ON!

swallowing it..

i just took the plunge..
and i swallowed my pride and ego..
but why did i do it??

i seriously dont know..
i dont even know if this is the right thing to do..
arghhhh.. darn it..
well HIMYM reference..
the eggs broken, so we might as well get a damn good omellette out of it...


Saturday, April 9, 2011

difficult...

yeah yeah i know..
i should be doing my assignments...
finishing it off will preparing nervously for my finals...
but it really has been difficult this semester..

however, i feel the difficulty has been raised to a higher level since i have not talked to you..
usually i'll be fine with this..
i mean life moves on..
but i realized..
that you are not just someone i broke off a friendship with..
you were a good friend...
sad...
its been difficult to see you around..
especially on facebook...

i do..
i really do wanna talk to you.. but..
its been difficult..
there are things said between us that i feel i cant take back..
it'll be weird..
but that feeling that i should swallow my pride and ego and just talk to you..
what say you guys?

moment of weakness.. haizz...

Friday, April 8, 2011

i'll be back...

slowly...
i will blog again...
i said i will..
but i gotta lotsa to do right now..
will blog again...
gotta some stuff to talk about also...

sometimes i feel i should make an emo lovey dovey bout the heart blog..
would be interesting hahaha...
i'll consider it..

but now i got to many assignments...
but i will blog again.. dont worry... ^^